Believe me when I say...

I have a story to tell you. It is not bad at all. I have a theater in my closet, and it's not bad at all. I sit and listen to you when you speak, and you are not bad at all. I have a story to give to you, and it's not bad at all.

Forgive me by saying I struggle, but it's not bad at all. Forgive me for not seeking your help when I needed it,your help was never bad at all. I stand here alone, but it's not bad at all. I weep, it's not bad at all? I cheer for you in my sadness, but it's not that bad at all. I die inside but it's not that bad at all.

It's a day by day life, that is not that bad at all. Judge me if you may, when you see what is inside I am not that bad at all. I stand beside you with no judgements when times are bad, and it was not bad at all.


You know when you leaned over like a child fixing your hair.
Nervous by the outcome, of no love at all..
and you see today I bet you uou can say

its' not that bad at all, she's not that bad at all.

I am a child, I am a mother...

Exactly one month ago today I gave birth to a beautiful baby "Dot in The Universe". High Five to my husband for this lovely accomplishment. We make a great team!
That night we were in chalet, I kicked my husbands ass in darts at 12:00am, come 2:00am my contractions started. We went straight to the hospital. I Finally had the baby at 9:15am February, 26, 2007.

Through out the whole experience of pregnancy and post-pregnancy I can really say this about the experience:

When pregnant, you are constantly aware of something being in your stomach, to me it felt like a big ball of gas!

Labor is a bitch (excuse my French). It seems that everyone forgets how painful, and long the whole experience is. I didn't and will never forget! (Epidural all the way sisters!).

Breastfeeding is a lovely experience. The bond and all. But realistically speaking, it is painful, time consuming (It takes 15 minutes on each side), and when all is done my baby is still hungry!

I know post-pardim depression is something real and does happen to women. Fortunately, I did not experience any of that. I think after the baby is born the new experience is so overwhelming that you have a choice to give in, or to let loose, breath, and enjoy the whole thing. That's what I did, and it feels great.

Well I am really happy I finally decided to post something again, It feels good to be back. :)

..I am a child, I am a mother.

Happy Mothers Day, to me?

What a strange feeling. After months of heart burn (Hence the Perrier post from last July), gas attacks, water retention, and mood swings I am a new mom.

It has only been three weeks but I have a new found respect for mothers everywhere.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY.

YUM!

"Ever since my house burned down I see the moon more clearly"-Gregory Colbert

Truely facinated by the artist Gregory Colbert. His unification of nature, the animal, and the human being is captured so gracefuly. I was really impressed by the beauty of his photographs.

This picture on the left was by far my favorite. I heard somewhere that the elephant in the pictures' head was down, when the boy started to really read to him he started to sit up to litsen.

06/06/06-We got hitched!

To my baby,

It is funny how I did not think twice about marrying you. You are the love my life, my best friend, and lover. I promise to love you forever (Or till 90 and on earth as you say). Congradulations to the both of us. :P


I love you,
Lilie :)

Confessions.

Days are feeling Loooooonger than usual.